Is
the actor happy?
2001:
Coke Machine Glow
“You must experiment. You do things in which you
eliminate something which is perhaps essential, but to learn how essential it
is you leave it out. The space then becomes very significant.” —Henry Moore
In 1999, Gord Downie was restless. He
was tired of playing arenas. He’d been inspired by the opening acts he’d
curated for Hip tours and Another Roadside Attractions. He was writing songs he
knew wouldn’t fit with the Hip. He had itches that couldn’t be scratched. It
was time for artistic infidelity.
In
any other band with 12 years of recording behind them, this wouldn’t be a
surprise. It’s more unusual when this doesn’t happen. But inside the
Tragically Hip, it was blasphemy among brothers. Several sources say that
Downie’s decision came at a time of poor communication and passive aggression,
and it caused a degree of discomfort for much of the next decade. When Gord started doing solo albums,” Rob Baker
admitted in 2017, “none of us liked it, because he had a voice with us.”
I
put the question to Jake Gold: what led to Downie’s decision to make
a solo record, and how was it received inside the band? The normally
forthcoming Gold slightly paused,
gave a steely glare and responded, “I’m not going to talk about that.”
Coke Machine Glow
came out in March 2001 and caused as much confusion as it did excitement. The
Tragically Hip could still be heard constantly on every classic rock station in
Canada; those stations did not play Coke
Machine Glow, with its dirgey country songs and poetry set to soundscapes,
an album where there are only two uptempo songs: one sounds like the Velvet
Underground’s “White Light White Heat,” the other is a polka with a tuba and
banjo. Mainstream press were likewise baffled. The indie scene was inherently
suspicious of a rock star slumming in its world. The new band was scrappy,
loose and exploratory, not a tight rock’n’roll machine. “Maybe Downie wanted
the creaky-boards feel of a coffee-house poetry reading,” wrote the Kingston
Whig-Standard reviewer (and later Michael Bublé biographer), who cited the
“clompy percussion with timid acoustic guitar and Downie’s hesitant vocals in
an under-produced sound that has the deliberate unfinished feel of a demo tape.”
The Globe and Mail wanted to know “how someone so demanding of his words can be
so complacent about the music.”
Gord
Downie would never make another record like it again. Yet it became one of the
most beloved albums in his discography.
Musicians who played on it say that strangers ask them about it all the time. Coke Machine Glow is to Downie what Nebraska is to Bruce Springsteen or Tonight’s the Night to Neil Young: an
album full of songs shunned by radio and rarely performed live, yet adored not
only by certain fans but by people uninterested in almost everything else by
the artist in question. Coke Machine Glow
became a secret whispered from one sympathetic ear to another. Like its title,
it was a beacon of light in unfamiliar surroundings from a widely recognized
brand name.
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The album was born on a train.
Travelling from Kingston to Toronto, Downie asked Steven Drake for ideas about
how to make a solo record. Drake told him to just get a good group of people
and record it all live. A solo project would inevitably be a home for songs
that fell outside of the Tragically Hip’s oeuvre. But Drake says Downie was
“more interested in a certain combination of people and what that would bring
about.”
The
first person he had in mind was Josh Finlayson of the Skydiggers. “He was
really the first friend I made in Toronto,” Downie said. “We’ve been like
brothers ever since.” It was Finlayson who convinced him the project could
work. Drake was hired as producer, engineer and bassist. Recording at the
Bathouse was out: Downie wanted something totally fresh. Not a single piece of
equipment, not even a guitar, would be borrowed from the Hip’s clubhouse.
Downie
booked the Gas Station studio, at 53 Fraser Avenue in Toronto’s Liberty
Village, run by Dale Morningstar and Don Kerr. Kerr was in the Rheostatics and
had toured with the Hip on Another Roadside Attraction in 1995 and on an arena
tour in 1997. On the last night of that tour, there was an after-party at the
studio, which is where Downie first fell in love with the space. Morningstar
and Kerr had once been bandmates in the Dinner Is Ruined, an often chaotic,
noisy avant-garde band that started out on the outer reaches of grunge, with
nods to Sonic Youth, and got progressively stranger with each record. The Gas
Station was their playground, stocked with junkyard instruments and odd
artifacts. When Kerr left the Dinner Is Ruined, Morningstar and keyboardist
John “Dr. Pee” Press continued as a duo until original Rheos drummer Dave Clark
signed on. Kerr remained a partner in the Gas Station, a studio that birthed
many beloved records of the late ’90s, including Thrush Hermit’s Clayton Park, Neko Case’s Furnace Room Lullaby and Godspeed You
Black Emperor’s Slow Riot for a New Zero
Kanada EP.
In
the 1990s, Liberty Village was full of disused factories and loft spaces. It
was a corner of Toronto that time forgot, colonized only by film crews and
artists looking for maximum space at minimal rent. Today, it’s a bustling
village of towering condos, prime office space, upscale bars and high-end
grocery stores. At the Gas Station in 2000, you still had to load your gear
onto an old freight elevator and down a dusty hallway before entering the
magical playroom, with its 12-foot-high ceilings and huge windows that offered
a panoramic view of the city. “It was a Fibonacci room,” says Drake, “meaning
the height of the ceiling to the width of the wall was 1:618, the Golden Ratio.
Those proportions are comforting for people.” The acoustics are inherently
impeccable in such a room.
Morningstar
was assisting Drake with the studio set-up in late March 2000 when he got a
call saying the studio was being evicted. The next week Morningstar staged an
anti-gentrification protest outside his landlord’s office, which rallied other
artists and got some local media coverage. That night he had a Dinner is Ruined
gig at College Street venue Ted’s Wrecking Yard. Having always been the kind of
band to walk a tightwire act, with no script or plan, the Dinner is Ruined was
known for having an erratic live show. “DIR is like someone plugs the thing in
and you never know if it will hop, buzz, fizzle or explode,” said Dave Clark.
When they were on fire, however, as they were that night at Ted’s, they were
mind-blowing. Gord Downie was in the audience that night, witnessing
Morningstar, Clark and Press channel their eviction blues into a strange
performance piece about the birth of the universe. Downie was grinning in the
middle of the room; one could almost see a light bulb going off over his head.
That
week was the first of two scheduled sessions for Coke Machine Glow, with Kerr on drums and Kevin Hearn on piano. It
started out, recalled Hearn, as a series of “very mellow, stoned afternoons.”
Until it wasn’t. “The
people directly below the studio were having some sort of eviction party,” said
Hearn. “They were trashing the place—hurling couches, smashing appliances,
throwing bottles at the wall. Gord was trying to do a vocal take, but the noise
was too much. He took off his headphones, walked downstairs and calmly walked
into their party. I tagged along. Everything stopped when Gord walked in;
it was like an old Western movie. Wearing a plaid shirt, jeans and cowboy hat,
he politely asked if they could please give us an hour, so he could finish his
last vocal take. Everyone in the room, a little shocked, said, yes, of course,
sorry et cetera. We went back upstairs and finished his vocal, accompanied by
beautiful, reverent silence.”
It
resulted in only two songs, “Chancellor” and “SF Song,” along with a rocking,
Lou Reed–style take on “Vancouver Divorce” before both Hearn and Kerr had to
leave for tour commitments with Barenaked Ladies and Ron Sexsmith,
respectively. They were scheduled to return for a second session in June, but the
Gas Station was being evicted by May 15. Morningstar called Downie with the bad
news; Downie begged to reschedule for any time available before the eviction.
Dave
Clark heard about this and knew that Kerr couldn’t finish the record. He asked
Morningstar to tell Downie he was available if needed. Morningstar was
reluctant; he didn’t feel he knew Downie well enough to put in a word for a friend.
But he did. “The Dave Clark?” asked
an enthused Downie. “I didn’t think he’d be into it—but yes!”
Dave
Clark joined the Rheostatics when he was a teenager, in 1980. His last three
records with the band—1990’s Melville,
1992’s Whale Music, 1994’s Introducing Happiness—garnered a massive
word-of-mouth cult audience, comprised mainly of fellow musicians, including
Neil Peart of Rush. Clark was one of four very different and charismatic
characters in the Rheos, whose live shows would veer from the triumphant to
harrowing to downright silly. He would often play around the beat rather than
delivering a standard rock pulse.
He
joined the Dinner Is Ruined on the day he quit the Rheostatics in 1995. He then
focused on his improv band, the Woodchoppers Association, while also doing “different
joe jobs: a lot of office cleaning and deliveries, some consulting for music
festivals,” he said. “I was still delivering Now magazine at that point.”
Many
people didn’t understand why Dave Clark would leave the Rheos for the Dinner is
Ruined, or why Gord Downie would possibly hire that band to comprise the
majority of his. “With DIR,” said Dave Clark, “it gave me the ultimate faith in
any sound, any thought: just make it, if you believe in it. Playing with that
band, I learned how to give in. I used to delineate between improvisation and
playing songs. I was wrong. You can do what you want.” That freedom was what
Downie went looking for.
When
sessions resumed, Morningstar started out plucking the strings of the piano
with a guitar pick on “Blackflies” and ended up playing on most of the tracks.
“He was like fungus,” said Steven Drake, when talking about Morningstar. “He
just grew into it.”
Musicians
sat in a circle. Finlayson and Drake knew the songs; Morningstar and Clark were
learning as they went. Overdubs, including vocals, were minimal. Drake
conducted the band while playing bass; at the end of a take, he’d run back to
the control room to work the board. No one wore headphones except Downie, who
used a small set of what Clark described as “airplane Walkman headphones, just
to get a bit more attenuation on his vocals. We played at a whisper. The record
sounds much bigger than what it is.”
“We
didn’t have any amplification,” said Drake. “We were playing at an acoustic
level, so we could hear Gord singing in the room. I just had a kick drum mic
and a single overhead on the drums. Gord was singing in a Beyer Dynamic Ribbon
mic from the ’50s, the same kind of mic Stan Getz used on his horn for ‘Girl
From Ipanema.’ He was playing his Martin nylon string [acoustic guitar], and he
was quite awkward on his guitar.”
“I’d
never experienced that before,” said Clark, “but the sound was phenomenal. The
tones are so clear and we’re playing together, so it’s very dynamic.”
“There
was a magic on that record,” said Morningstar. “There was a map, but I don’t
think anyone knew the direction. That’s not a bad thing; we were just moving
forward. Some things just happened. The original title [track] was ‘Insomniacs
of the World, Goodnight.’ That song came about when I was in the other room,
jamming away on the pump organ by myself. Gord was walking through and said,
‘Hey, is that something? Can I use that?’ So he got Steven to come in, mic it
up. Gord had his lyrics and they just did it, right then and there. Then they
layered on Dave doing some swells and Julie [Doiron] on backing vocals. Gord
was so open to stuff like that, the spontaneity of those moments.”
Some
of those moments were glorious mistakes—mostly from Dale Morningstar. “If Dale
plays what sounds like a wrong note at first, he’ll lean into that thing until
it’s the right note,” said Clark. “He’ll bruise that note until you stop
feeling the pain and it starts tasting sweet. He’s magical that way.” By Divine
Right’s José Contreras, who played organ on two songs, was there when Morningstar
played an atonal, screeching note right before the third verse of “Vancouver
Divorce.” “I remember Steven Drake: [makes pained face, covers ears] ‘Fuckin’ HELL,’” said
Contreras. “I was sitting there going, ‘That’s fucking beautiful.’”
“Dale
was the studio rat character,” said Drake. “He’s a funny guy. I don’t know if
he was shitting me or not, but I remember I turned to him and said, ‘Oh, that’s
a D.’ He said, ‘Huh? I don’t know what that is.’ Then he played a D. If I
played it, he could play it, but he didn’t know the names.”
“What’s
beautiful about the record is the vulnerability, and surrendering to these
people that [Gord] trusted,” said Morningstar. “Nobody there sounds like a
session player, or like they’re phoning it in or following orders. And there
are songs like ‘Trick Rider’: I can’t imagine the Hip doing something that
delicate. That set of lyrics also strikes me as the strongest.”
“Trick
Rider” is one of the most beautiful songs about parenting ever written, and the
most straightforward, emotionally vulnerable set of lyrics Downie had penned
since “Fiddler’s Green.” It’s not particularly original subject matter: the
narrator marvels at the innocence of his children, long before the hypocrisies
and failures of the future can corrupt their idealism. He cannot bear to watch
them perform dangerous, carefree acts, even as he admires their fearlessness.
In Downie’s hands, of course, the song avoids cliché, and the harmonies with
Julie Doiron of Eric’s Trip make it even more haunting.
“I
absolutely adore ‘Trick Rider,’ which I think is one of the greatest songs he
ever wrote,” said Clark. “Julie is amazing on that song. The lyric is
heartbreaking. I liked that it addressed being an adult with children. A lot of
people hide who they are, and Gord did not. He’s a dad. There’s nothing more
rock’n’roll than being a dad—oh, wait, yes there is: being a mom!”
Clark’s daughter is the same age as Doiron’s and Downie’s eldest; all were
about five years old at the time of Coke Machine Glow. The song would
routinely move Clark to tears while playing it live, even 10 years later.
Doiron called it “one of the most beautiful songs ever written.” She’s not
wrong.
Doiron
was not given much notice before the session: when she got the call, she was
leaving for a Swedish tour in two days, so she went to Toronto a day early
before her flight. “Trick Rider” just happened to be the song scheduled for
that day. “No one said, ‘We’ve been waiting for you to do this one,’” Doiron
recalled. She played piano, which she rarely does, only because there were
three other guitarists there.
Doiron
and Contreras were two of several players outside the core band brought into
the main session. Jaro Czerwinec, who played accordion on the Cowboy Junkies’ Trinity Session, provided a direct link
to one of Coke Machine Glow’s inspirations. Andy Maize of the
Skydiggers played trumpet. Filmmaker Atom Egoyan played classical guitar. Los
Lobos drummer Louie Perez co-wrote one song. The Sadies’ Travis Good played
fiddle and mandolin.
For
a record that was supposed to be entirely Hip-free, one guest was more than
conspicuous in his presence: Paul Langlois, Downie’s oldest friend in the band,
contributes his unmistakable harmonies on “Lofty Pines” and “Yer Possessed.” It
was a last-minute decision. Because the entire album was being recorded to only
eight tracks, Travis Good’s fiddle got wiped from those two tracks to make room
for Langlois.
Contreras
credits Downie’s faith and Drake’s expertise with the album’s success. “It was
incredible, musically,” he said. “‘Vancouver Divorce’ was three takes: every
take, different set of lyrics. No lyric book in front of him. Maybe he’d have
some papers to look at. But he’d sing a lyric and you’d think, ‘That verse is
incredible.’ Then he’d not do that verse in the next take. And you can’t be
like, ‘Oh, don’t forget that verse.’ Because these other verses are just as
great.”
That
said, Contreras felt a clash between what he perceived as the straight half of
the band—Drake and Finlayson, both coming from musically conservative rock
bands—and the weirdoes from the Dinner Is Ruined. “Steve very much believed in
the songs and thought it could be a hit record,” said Contreras. “Because
that’s what he does. You can take that really any way you want. There was a lot
of tension in the air because Dale and Dave did not click with Steven Drake.
I’d had a video hit and I was twenty-nine and Steven pulled me over to get me
onto his team: ‘C’mon, José, you like hit records, buddy, we want to make a hit
record here, don’t you think?’ Then Dale and Dave did the same thing, pulling
me into another room and grouching about ‘fucking corporate rock’ and how shit
it is, and the attitude. There was real tension in the studio, but Gord was
either oblivious or rose right above it. Not a word about it, zero.”
Contreras
was only in the studio two days. The others dispute his version of events. “The
sun would be shining in the windows,” said Clark. “Everyone was very happy,
joyous, very relaxed. Gord and Steve had a vibe together that made sense. There
were times when I wasn’t sure if Steven was making the right decisions, but I
listen to the record, and it really makes me happy.”
“I
don’t think there was any uneasiness,” said Morningstar. “I think we were all
trying to harvest those songs. I was trying to play as sparse as I could and
not overstep. I was the colour man. That’s how I saw myself. It was the first
chance I’d had to play with a singer, an outside singer, and really try to play
off his voice, or complement it. That’s what everyone was trying to do: not
step on the music.”
“I
mean, Steven Drake did an amazing job,” said Contreras. “If you listen with the
idea that one person in the room was producing and engineering and also in
close touch with Gord about what the idea was, and he’s playing bass while looking around the room, too—and then
you listen to the bass playing—you realize he’s a fucking master.”
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For his first solo performance
outside the Tragically Hip, Gord Downie could not have chosen an environment
more unlike the rock clubs where he cut his teeth. That said, it did involve
beer.
Held
on February 3, 2001, at the newly opened Steam Whistle Brewery in the shadow of
the CN Tower, the Do What?! Festival was curated by Dave Clark and Terence Dick
of the Woodchoppers Association. Downie was a featured performer, alongside
performance artist Sook-Yin Lee, Toronto avant-garde veteran “sound poet” Paul
Dutton, dance performances by Andrea Nann and Lisa Prebianca and art
installations including one by Reid Diamond of Shadowy Men on a Shadowy Planet,
who’d died of cancer months before. Tickets were $10, available only at College
Street record store Soundscapes. They sold out immediately. Judging by the
dress code of the crowd at this freaky event, a significant majority were
mainstream Hip fans unsure what they were in for.
“It
was the kind of gig I’d normally do with the Woodchoppers,” said Clark,
“dancers, singers, visual artists, musicians all together. Gord worked out
these dance pieces with Andrea Nann, who is one of the greatest living
exponents of modern dance Canada has ever produced. He improvised with the
Woodchoppers. We had a huge band, and everyone was dressed up in everything
from hockey gear to princess and fairy outfits. Gord kicked it through the
post, man. It was really good. I remember some people being beside themselves,
freaking out at how much fun it was, and others were just shocked.” Nothing
about the evening was predictable or rote. Downie looked delighted, completely
at ease in this environment.
In
July 2001, Downie debuted his “Goddamned Band” with Finlayson, Morningstar and
Clark, as well as John “Dr. Pee” Press from the Dinner Is Ruined on keyboards
and Julie Doiron, who would alternate between guitar and bass with Finlayson. Their
first gig was playing a webcast for the Umbrella Music site.
“We’d rehearsed a bit, but I didn’t feel like I really knew the songs yet,”
said Doiron. “I went up to Gord and said, ‘I’m sorry I’m so nervous! I’m
freaking out. What am I doing here? Why me?’ He said, ‘Julie, you’re here
because I need you here.’ He could have easily had any studio musician
who would know all the parts. But he didn’t want that. I don’t think he’s ever
looked for that. He wants people he wants to be around, creative people, not
necessarily technically good. That’s what makes working with him so cool,
because he trusts whatever it is you’re going to do. I’ve never been given any
guidance. He’s like, ‘You know what to do.’”
That
was followed by a few select dates at summer folk festivals, starting the
weekend of July 27 at the Calgary Folk Festival and the Hillside Festival in
Guelph, Ontario. Those shows threw a lot of Hip fans for a loop, even if they
had bought Coke Machine Glow a few
months earlier. “Sure, some hardcore Hip fans just hated it,” said Morningstar.
“But I’m sure some thought, ‘This is different, this is great.’ People didn’t
shout out for Hip tunes. We thought that might happen, but it didn’t at all.
Gord was just proud— proud of the band and what we were doing. He would say
stuff like, ‘I love this band. I believe in this band. This is my band. I’m
really good at putting bands together.’ He didn’t give a fuck what anyone
thought. He wanted to make it good from his own perspective and from ours.”
The
Goddammed Band, later renamed the Country of Miracles, was a relief valve for
Downie. If the Hip had become entrenched in an all-too-familiar working method,
with audiences cheering the loudest for songs written 10 years prior, this new
band had something to prove every night. And they were fearless players.
“Things
would get outside,” said Clark. “That band was able to go in on a dime.
Lots of vocals, some really bluegrassy stuff. I ended up playing tuba; we all
played different things. When we went to New York City, we’d play in the middle
of the audience. We’d stretch things out; Gord would extemporize. Every time
we’d go on tour there would be a lot of taking the piss out of each other and
loads of jokes. After gigs, we’d put on some music and dance and sing on the
bus. We’d hang out and talk about music. Everybody in that band is a hyper
nerd.”
It
wasn’t just Downie learning from his band; the exchange was mutual on all
fronts. Clark praised Doiron for influencing his own playing. “She’s a monster
of a musician,” he said. “She’s one of the hardest-working musicians I’ve ever
met and manages to raise a gigantic family of kids. She had this vibe, this
groove, this pocket she could get into, which helped me out as a player a lot.
I tend to get adrenalized and can push things too hard. She made me aware of
some things that could work better, and I thought, ‘I should listen to this
person. She knows what she’s talking about.’”
It
was also a band of singers. Having just toured with Kate Fenner as a temporary
member of the Hip, Downie relished the even bigger harmonies his new band could
provide. So did Clark. “I love singing with people, probably more than I love
drumming,” he said. “Sometimes I’d be on stage and it would be like, ‘Holy
fuck, man, I’m singing backups with Gord Downie!’ I’d look around, and there
were all my friends I’d known for years and we’re on stage together and the
whole thing’s bouncing and we’re having a good time. Then my brain would shut
off and I’d start listening and be part of the band again.”
Cover
songs appeared in many of the sets, the first time since he had a record
contract that Downie regularly sang other people’s songs live. The Goddammned
Band did some Randy Newman, some Bob Dylan, some Taj Mahal, some CCR. And one
particularly memorable version of Neil Young’s “Tonight’s the Night.”
“We
ended up headlining the Edmonton Folk Festival, at night,” Clark recalled. “The
ampitheatre there is on what looks like a ski hill, and people light candles so
it’s like looking at stars at night. The band before us was Baaba Maal’s big
band, from Africa, an eighteen-piece band with dancers. I remember standing at
the side of the stage with Dale and saying, ‘Jesus. Who thought this was a good idea, to put us on after
these guys?’ But we got up and had, to my mind, the best set of the tour. We
started with ‘Tonight’s the Night.’ Gord walked out there and just grabbed
it—every night.”
When
there was time, the Dinner Is Ruined booked shows for off nights in the same
town. Again, Edmonton was a highlight. At a gig at the Liquid Lounge, Finlayson
joined them on bass, and Gord commandeered the mic while the five of them
improvised an entire set of music. In an odd twist, said Morningstar, “One big
DIR fan after was like, ‘Ah, man.’ He was bummed out that Gord Downie was on
our stage. I’m like, ‘Oh, c’mon.’”
Something
similar happened in Yellowknife. “They put us up in a house for five days,”
recalled Morningstar. “One night, a Monday or Tuesday, we went down to the
local watering hole, where they had an open mic. We went and said, ‘Can we hit
the stage?’ Josh was home sleeping. We took over that room. It was Gord
freestyling. It was the DIR with Julie on bass. The crowd had no idea Gord
Downie was going to play. They were all standing on tables. No songs, we were
just jamming. It was the peak of his freestyling, just going for it.”
Whether
or not Downie knew what he had been looking for when he stepped outside the
framework of the Hip, he had most certainly found it. This was a new family of
freaks, of dancers, of kindred spirits. Even if they never took precedence over
the Tragically Hip, even if they only did two other records and tours over the
next 16 years, these were people with whom Downie felt at home. The feeling was
more than mutual.
“The
time we spent together was special and intense and instructive,” said Clark.
“More than anything, we developed a lifelong friendship. I don’t have to see
Julie for years and when I see her it’s beautiful. I go out walking with Josh,
and I start laughing before we even open our mouths. All those people who
played on the first record: Andy, Don, José, Kevin—they’re all friends. My
whole point for playing music personally is to commune with people. I don’t go
to church; I’m not a religious person. Where I go to church is when I get on
stage with people. I want to be with people. I want to sing. I want that
endorphin rush. I want to be a part of something. With Gord and that crew,
there was a real community and a real family and I’m deeply grateful for it.”